Everything started by him telling he was going to marry.
I concludedI the day and I was right.
I thought it would not affect me, and even by knowing the day. I felt OK.
Some days later, I found of some of my colleagues went out together and as usual, they didnt invite me.
To be honest, it touched me, and I refused to go to the party they had on Sunday night.
I stayed at home thinking about excused I could make for not going… That was like seeing an old picture of my life…
On Saturday I didn’t have volunteer so I could rest and I got better for my flu.
I decided to go to the English cafe with Yumi and it was nice. I met a handsome Chinese guy and a Turkish guy.
But we didn’t go to dinner so I came back home early, during the commuting some drunk guy introduced himself to me .. I was nervous because I don’t like to deal with such people, they can be dangerous I think, but I got off in the next station.
On Monday, I went to work as usual … but after leaving my job place I took the bus and I couldn’t help myself .. and I started crying.
So many emotions were in my heart hiding… and I think I know why …
For the rejection I felt from my coworkers … It did hurt me …
For his wedding …. It did hurt me
My trainers stolen outside my house … It doesn’t hurt, but it was not a good think.
For my pitiful raise of 2.75% that is around 0.35 Cents. … a fucking joke…
All these hurt me … even if I act as it doesn’t.
I saw a picture of the wedding through Vikis WhatsApp status.
I started searching for wedding ideas, thinking my wedding would be much better than his.
But what If? What If I never married?
I talked to him yesterday, I felt envy for everything he got for me… and how I did not get anything.
I know it is not a good feeling.
I really think I must stop talking to him.. It won’t take me to anywhere.
What happen …happens .
You know, I think if his girlfriend were not pregnant we could be together and today I thought.. Why you didn’t wait for me?
It is over.
he wrote me in his wedding day:
Wish me luck laf. And one thing I can and will promise you on this day. I will always love you and keep ur place in my heart and if u will want it, you will have me in ur life… God bless you 🙅♂
idiot … I should get away …