I came to my home city but I didn’t tell much people. I thought because I wouldn’t have enough time to meet everyone and that’s true.
Well, the few friends I expected to see I didn’t. Because maybe they were too busy or didn’t care to see me. I cried yesterday, even when I act like things don’t matter.
I do believe, everyone was busy and the rainy weather didn’t help. On the other hand, people as Peter, Karen and Mill would probably have loved to meet me but I didn’t even tell them I was going.
Then I realized I much do much more with my friends, the ones back home and the news ones. I know money is a matter now that I live abroad, pay an expensive rent and earn almost minimum wage… But I shouldn’t let this to stop me going out with my friends.
Like that Sunday when Ray invited me out and I didn’t go. I just used Amy as excuse. I meant she was sad at home but I didn’t want to go also.
I think because I am lazy but I need to overcome this. Need to hang out more with friends and family.
It also made me sad I practically don’t see more of my family..
I thought about writing more to my friends and even maybe video call them to keep the relationship strong.
I need to go out more with friends.
Write my old friends.
Write to my family.
I can change now.. It’s. Not late.
And next time I’m Going back home. I will let everybody know in advance…