He is in town

He came to give a training in my city.

A friend we have in common told me to go to a bar to watch a match. I agreed since I had no way to escape, then  I decided to invite F. it would be a good excuse, he would be safe since he would be sure we won’t end up in bed together.

I arrived late …thanks to the traffic of this stupidly insane metropoli. F.  told me he had invited some Brazilians friends of him .. GREAT, I thought.

Finally, I arrived to the bar with Ed (my friend) and found F. alone sitting in a big table. His friends had been doing some shopping, later they arrived, one woman and two men, they were pretty nice and easy going.

We moved to a fancy sports bars because we wanted to watch the match. The Brazilian people was very nice cheering to the Peruvian team. One of them even sent some beers to another table where there was a guy wearing a Peru jersey… how cool. I have never seen this and it was nice to see it in a friendly environment.

When I arrived F. hugged me tight .. he always hugs for more time that I expect. My head hurted me a bit due my surgery. When we went moving to the other bar, he hugged me also while walking saying he was so glad to see me again.

Maybe he really appreciates me like a friend .. he was really glad to see me. Later, after returning from the bathroom he hugged me and Ed saying we were his best friends in this country.

Now I get it … I prefer he cares about me as a human being that he waiting to fuck me.

We had a very nice night. I talked in Portuguese with the Brazilian people and they said I had a good accent. He was grabbing me from the waist .. like a game for him being mad at me or something when I was saying something to bother him. It was pretty funny and a bit painful.

We took an Uber and somehow we hold hands. I was watching at him ..he is so handsome … I was admiring him really… Anyway, when he left we kissed as friends do.  I am not sure if he is worried about him falling again in my bed … maybe he met someone else during his way working in Panama… but come on, I should not been thinking about this. I think our lips were near when he left.

After he left .. I wrote him on whatsapp that he was so handsome and hot .. he just replied I was drunk .. probably then fall asleep. Before leaving the Uber he had told us,  remember guys I will be here so we can go out …

But today I wrote him about going out at night … and well, he took too much time in answering and at the end ..we didn’t go anywhere. I guess it was better this way.

Plus, I will start to value him as a person as a friend more than as a piece of meat.

I was wrong … I would treat him as a friend.. that I slept with a couple of times. .. but as a friend I like and I respect.

I was looking pretty today … I am happy now, I was down a couple of hours before.. but now I see how things are.  We are friends .. I will try to convince him to come again so we can visit the pyramids.

He is a great man, I admire him and must keep his friendship.

One thing that I found a bit weird is that before he was never taking pics and now he sent me many pics of him. I used to thought I would never get a pic of him besides the ones I screenshot from his WhatsApp picture, haha. He even took pictures of him on my phone and let them there.  He took a pic of us 3 in my phone and later asked me to sent to him. Finally I have a nice picture of my good Brazilian friend. He even told Ed and I we could go anything to Brazil … hmmm. 




Friday 7th July, 2017

That Friday I invited a lot of people to the gym to go clubbing, why? Because I want to go out with ¨The Brazilian, Fabs who is my fav”.

The night started with me arriving rushing to my house. Taking out my Net stockings that I had just bought for this night. I had a wine color dress and some booties. I think I was looking very nice, but yeah, I am a bit chubby.

I arrived late to meet Peter and he and I went to a nice brewery. They had delicious craft beer. Gaby arrived later and around 10:30 we moved to the club.

Fabs hadn’t  arrived, he arrived around midnight and I was already drunk.

I remember texting him, hurry up, since the most time it passes the more difficult is for me to unblock my phone. Finally, he arrived, gosh, he is hot.

Cari and Gabi told me he was very fine… a gay blondie, Paco, also said..he hated me for being eating such a guy.

I remember we were dancing, reggeaton and hip hop, I also, remember (kinda) that I was sitting in the club. Later, I found out I actually fell asleep twice that night.

I remember going towards Fabs and he was just trying to calm me down saying ¨despacito¨to me, haha.  Later, he told me it was because I was like crazy, and spilled his drink 4 times.

Gaby was making out with a teenager that was next to us. Later, she escaped without paying her part of the bill, also she took Peter´s money, because he left early, more less at the time that Fabs arrived.  Cari and Gaby said because he is into me, and well, I was very busy with Fabs, of course.

I tried to pay my part of the bill. That night we drank Buchanan´s. But, this gentleman of course didn’t let me pay. Next time in the gym, Cari told me, Fabs was very nice all night with me, taking care I didn’t fall, just standing in front of me watching me while I was sleeping in the club, jaja, paying my bill and taking me home.

We came home, and yes, again had irresponsible intercorse.  I don’t remember much, He finished on my back and sent me to take a shower. I did, left the bathroom with a towel on and lay in bed. He went to the bathroom … 

Thats all I remember. I woke up next day alone in my bed. He had left, as he did the Friday before.

I was feeling a bit sad .. nostalgic or empty …

But I didn’t have much time to be sad. Next I had to drive around 25 mins to check a house I wanted to buy. My mom came also to checked, at the end she got mad because the sellers want me to sign some documents but still it was not for sure that I would get my house, so why to sign?

Anyway, my mom was right when things are for you …they simply are, and it seems that house was not for me. It was too far away from the center, probably not a Smart decision.

I had told Fabs that we could do a lot of things on Saturday and Sunday.

But he barely wrote me during that weekend… I didn’t want to bother him. He knew the plans I had and if he didn’t say a Word.. it was obvious his answer.

I slept in the afternoon, maybe to see the time pass, trying to avoid thinking he didn’t write to me.

And well, yes, I was waiting for he to write to me ….but I didn’t want to bother him.